justice...you don't know me!

When I leave this life, I hope to leave some sort of legacy. Right now I see it only as my wisdom for others. Please don’t think I know everything, or pretend to, but I do have a lot of experiences that I hope some people just don’t go through and I hope a little of what I have to say will seep into others minds. I love the quote about learning from others mistakes makes you a wise man so you don’t have to learn from your own. Well I hope you learn something from my thoughts so that you may be a wiser man than me.

There has been something on my mind for the past few months that I wish to expand on. It is the concept of justice. I know what I’m about to say sounds simple but sometimes the simple things are the things that tend to slip by us and become ignored.

Justice is simply the quality of being just or fair. Being the youngest of 6 kids I would always be running to my mom or dad telling them that I wanted to go somewhere or to do something and had them tell me no because they didn’t think it good or their trust was worn down by older siblings. So my reply would be but it’s not fair, and in response they would tell me life’s not fair. As much as I hated hearing those words they ring a truth. This I had to find the hard way knowing that as much as I want justice for the things that have happened in my life there is none. I want so much for those who had done me wrong to pay but they will not. To see the real crimes go unpunished brings a sickness to my stomach. I get so frustrated that I lay punished for something that I did not do. To have people who don’t know me have power to change my life. To have them tell me what is best for me. Ha! I laugh at the thought in a sickening sigh. Life isn’t fair, isn’t that so true and the only thing that keeps me going is the faith that someday everyone will be judged by one who knows them the best, even the intent of their hearts. Finally at that day I will plead for mercy not justice. But I know the lord will look upon my heart to see the intent to do good, and grant me that mercy. At that day I believe this will be a personal session. What have I learned these past months and things I continue to learn is that Justice will come and the Lord will choose but for me to receive mercy I must forgive those I seek justice after! So that is my life struggle!

PRESS RESTART

I fear blogging.I admit I watch the bad girls club it could be worse, I could admit I watch the Hills. On a recent episode the new girl blogged about her new supposed friend exposing all her faults and weaknesses. Which was later found by her so called friend. The words cut deep, true feelings expressed to a closed group of friends and family, cut deep by the one who was never to know. Soon later the friendship turned into hate. No longer did they care. I admit I am one not to always watch my words, and yes I will write what I feel. Sometimes those feelings should be keep to a close group and even in the confines of words in a journal. So I say this to who ever reads this blog. I am sorry if what ever I say harms you in some way! With that said I start my first blog.
Ok maybe not my very first blog...haha, but the past is the past so lets just hit the restart key and start fresh. And if no one reads this I'm ok with that...because if anything this blog is as much for me than for anyone else. But if you do however read and feel like saying something please I love comments! If you liked me great let me hear it, hated what I said and think I'm a idiot cool tell me about it! So please sit back and enjoy!